The Red Zone Republic

I really hate him to the depths of my bones. I can never forget all the times and memories, i wasted with this ridiculous man. I am torn in an abyss of darkness where i can't find any redemption nor atonement. What i know, is that i am pouring a lot of tears for a scenario that i never deserved. If they only had given me the choice as to where i should be born... i could have chosen a different home:( a home that i won't be criticized nor looked under the belt. There were no days that had passed by that i never regret what had happened to me and i won't hesitate to admit that i still do feel the same way. But the issue falls not under me its with him and there can be no forgiveness on my part. I am suffering and i am tired. Hope this could be like any other fairy tale where there is always a happy ending. No an ending without him and his face.

why do i have a feeling that he's gone:(

Today isn't my lucky day. All of a sudden it turns gray for me, shading off the colors that i possess supposed to be. How i wish i could contemplate to every bit of reality that i need to understand, but every time i make my step for it, it turns the other way:( People can't just live for themselves. They always need to kick somebody's ass just to satisfy there greedy thoughts. But now shootingstars won't belong to there list of victim anymore, no!, not now nor ever.

i hate this part right here:)
i can't take it any longer

As a blogger i would like to share my opinion towards the two current concerns of our country today:)
First: The outbreak of AH1N1 to the outskirts of the country
They said that the they will quarantine the 16-17 passengers of the plane who sat nearest to the child who was said to be infected. Now let's go back to the scenario, the plain traveled for the entire 6 HOURS. For me that is enough to infect EVERYONE who was on the plain.WHY? AH1N1 is possibly transmitted via droplet
For everyone's information
an amount of air droplets is released every time we exhale.
[Try this: breathe on a piece of mirror and you'll notice moist formation]
Imagine even though if its just a child still 6hours is an enough time frame to reach everyone
so i think they should look for the other passengers which is kinda late. They could had interacted with the crowd already by now:(

Tips: just bring with you your antiseptics and regularly wash your hands every time you use public facilities


DR Hayden koh
[REACTION]

In my point of view, i don't like to judge whether who's right and wrong. I would like to propose to the public to be open-minded with this issue. I'm quite amazed with the support of the women
to katrina and the act of the authorities toward the scandal.

Well pretty sure hayden is being pointed as the culprit of everything. but let me remind you that things don't happen if they don't have the consent of both parties. In general, not mentioning names, at the first place there will be no scandal if there are no participants right? And to think that it happens secretly both parties suffers equal shear responsibilities and consequeces regarding the act:)

I know we filipinoes are better than that. i can say we are capable to take this matter in a more critical way. Now is not the right time to overconclude but i think we''ll know the truth only if we hear the parties:)

I've been listening to this song white horse by Taylor swift and it really caught my attention:) "I'm not a princess,this is not a fairy tale.....and its too late for you and your white horse to catch me now" hahaha talking bout being so mellow dramatic. It made me remember of someone back @ high school. Well not exactly someone but a whole bunch of people that I've been with on my high school days. Truly i miss them a lot :( . I miss hanging with them. Well they thought i moved on with my own scheme but the truth is...i haven't yet. Miss TWL :(

shoots! there's another song that MADE ME MISS THEM EVEN MORE!:(

"with you is where I'd rather be,but we're stuck where we are so hard so far. This long distance is killing me"

Can you hear me crying hard!!
Shootingstars cry T.T

it seems like gravity has it's effects on me. I'm being hunted by a memoir that i tried to burry
a long time ago:(

my attention was called by my tita, she tried to ask me if i can be around the operation that she was about to handle. Wah! so much for the bluff it was very tiring. Ive been standing for (imagine) 9 whole hours. My legs were so like to give in that time. But i was so lucky, got the chance to know something new. Anyways lets go to another topic. For two whole days ive been eating alot. hahahaha:) nice. For sure i'll increase my weight:) huhuhuhhuh got troubles in sleeping at night,but i can still manage that.hahaha so long:)

Find it so easy to go through this day, and it takes only a day till my big day. Its a rainy afternoon plus the noise that keeps me annoyed but im still fine. Tire from duty and stuff but still going on:)

what a sad morning and i cant even explain why. I just woke up having questions that i never had before. I took a 15min. ride for a coffee and tried to make sense of everything. Well i still can't open up the topic yet, sad to say i'm not ready yet. Am i being hunted by the past? That i really don't know:(

Its been 2 weeks already since that awful day. Nothing could have gone much worst that to see two of my members go and leave. The other one left for manila and the other one was transfered to another group. Hehehe i can still remember those days that we had at cebu. When chessa kept on laughing, making it alot funnier indeed. She always had that crazy look that makes the group burst into laughter. How i wish that get together day comes sooner haik!